So if you need me, I'll be the nutter living in a box on the street chucking pennies at people as they pass me by. And ranting in tongues, of course. Making up conspiracy theories about sea lions and manta rays will occupy a huge chunk of my time. Make sure to catch the 3 pm show where I talk to my socks and blame them for making me the way I am.
Well, that's a load of nonsense, isn't it? I don't know you very well at all, Em, and yet I still am aware that you are an intelligent, sharp person, and you can get into whatever school you'd like.
ReplyDeleteOkay, well, if you bombed your way through high school, perhaps not, but somehow, I feel that isn't the case.
Forgive me for creeping on you and putting in my two-sense; I enjoy reading your thoughts. Is that weird? Stalker-y?
Anyway, what I wanted to say was that your post about marriage and being TERRIFIED of it really got to me. I'm nineteen, and this April, I will have been with my boyfriend for two years.
He hasn't asked me to marry him or anything, but we've certainly talked about it. And when I say talked about it, I mean we've talked about what month we want to marry and what we want to name our children. Serious discussion.
The thing is, he wants to work for the State overseas, as an ambassador-type. I don't even know what I want to be, but I am certain that one of my viable options is to become an actress. Here. In the United States.
I am having a difficult time because I love this man, but I'm not the type of woman who will drop all of her dreams and talents to follow some guy halfway across the world. I feel like I have all these exciting, lucrative paths I could take, and yet I'm being pushed--by him and my own family--to take the one more traveled. The one to safety. To security.
I'm not the safe and secure type; I am full of wanderlust, I thirst for adventure and danger...and honestly, getting married to a good ole boy and having a lovely little suburban family will not satisfy that thirst.
Long story short, my love, is that I agree with you, and I am relieved that I am not the only one who feels this way.
Firstly, I do not find you to be a stalker at all because I creep on you right back. I just think you're a very neat person and I am flattered you like to read my thoughts. And thanks for the confidence in my intelligence... I know I'm not dumb, just easily overwhelmed by the enormity of choice.
ReplyDeleteIt's always nice to know that you aren't the only one in the world who feels a certain way. The idea of the "suburban dream" is like a death sentence for me. I'm grateful that women no longer have to marry and give up their ambitions in order to have security. I'm eagerly awaiting the journey down those exciting, lucrative paths you mentioned.
I have a feeling we would agree on many subjects. We have eerily similar situations with the whole all-of-a-sudden-BOY thing. I'd love to talk more about things and get to know more about you.
"I'll be the nutter living in a box... etc."
ReplyDeleteEmily, you do realize you just described most of the people I knew in college?