Montage

With the twists and turns of my liquid neck

the flicker of the camera frame captures

a classic movie moment for siskel and ebert

Apertures and filaments, flash bulbs in my eyes

dilating the blind spots in my sickly vision

voices split, run and ream their melodic destruction

tenuous high string, zip and slap the nylon chords

Pinging drips of harmony, drizzle like honey the sweetness

of sound, golden and delicious and fix to each snap,

each click of the camera lens that captures my mind

imaging finds my memories and my very own home movie

in my head of all the years and times and blazing, burning

buried back in my brain. the moving madness in my mind

makes me miss my father, with his bright face the feature of

the film within my memories. the sound he inspired

the love of music injected into my veins like a wondrous

drug- an addiction he advocated, he appreciated and taught

me how to make it, mold it, and mean the music

the swinging camera circles my head, grabbing all these pictures

of family and love and grief and death and how things return

to a state of undiscovered territory after such bane removal.

He's still in the hidden in my mind, captured now onto filmy

reproductions of the life we had together. we do not connect

on any plane, but that I have you tucked away within my

heart and within my mind speak volumes of my love.

At the great beginning of things as it were for me, as you

wanted for me, I think of you and tip my hat to all the things

you've advised me to hold dear over the years

At this the beginning of my life as it will eventually grow to be,

as you will never get to see, I feel you near and that you guide

me and want to be a part of the person I soon will be. Take

my mind's stream of consciousness, the pictures of your

face etched onto the backs of my eyeballs, take this and know

that I haven't forgotten you, that I think of you and even

if you wouldn't have cared for the direction I followed or

the dope that I smoked or the women I've kissed, you'd still

know that I love you by continuing to live on through all of

my life and I haven't tried to reach you in a permanent sort

of way. I am living my life as you lived your life, to give me all

the opportunities I deserve. I love you because I've followed

my hopes and dreams for my life. Keep close the camera's picture,

capturing just the love I have for you. That I will always have

for you.